"I don't really… understand you sometimes Alicia." Zeres said in a weak voice and again, Alicia looked away.
"I also don't understand what's so hard for you to understand Zeres." Alicia's voice was weak now as well with a slight tone of complaint. "You already know that I am willing to do anything for my people. You have known that for a long time now. You have already seen as to what extent I am willing to go through to save our race." Alicia was exasperated at having to go through this topic again with Zeres.
"Yes, I know. I saw with my own two eyes… how you selflessly even gave not just your life, but your… just to save someone… someone you don't even…" Zeres choked and could not finish his sentence, just looking at her with those helpless eyes.
"Zeres…" Alicia stared intently at him. "Please stop being guilty about what had happened to me. I already told you… this is not your fault. This is fully my choice. And I did not do that just for you. I did that to save all the future witch queens as well. I regret nothing, Zeres. That had to be done because there was no other way. You know that right?" her voice was soft, trying to reason with him again.
Squeezing his eyes closed again, Zeres threw his head back. Ah… there they go again… this topic seems to be a never ending debate of back and forth between them.
Even though he knew she was trying to lessen the guilt that he was feeling, it still hurts, nonetheless. A small ghost of a smile curved on his face. This woman really has a talent in driving him insane. He had already tried his very best to understand her and accept that Alicia was just the selfless queen that she was but… this thing about her plan regarding Kiel was just something he could not even begin to imagine. Was she… really planning to kill the man she…
"So this time… for the sake of the witches', and because there is no other choice, you're willing to even… kill the man you…" Zeres could not finish his sentence. He kept his gaze on Alicia and it was funny how the woman did not even seem to bother to complete that line.
"I told you, there is no other choice." She stubbornly steeled herself. "I know you're thinking that I can't do it because it's Ezekiel, but Zeres…" Alicia smiled slightly and bitterly, "I sacrificed my life and even my chance for the afterlife to save our race… do you think I'll just stay still and let someone annihilate the very thing I sacrificed myself for, just because this someone is Ezekiel?"
She shook her head. "I won't let him spill the witches' blood for the second time. As long as I'm still here, I will not let my sacrifices go in vain. If Ezekiel somehow breaks his curse and still want to slaughter the witches like he had sworn before… then… I will… take his life myself."
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