Hellbound With You novel Chapter 793

Chapter 793: A single drop

"I'm sorry." Alicia did not know what to say. She was panicking internally. "I swear didn't mean to see... you can erase it. It's fine with me. You can erase the memories that I saw."

Alicia chattered on in her nervousness.

Ezekiel stared at her, surprise gleaming in his eyes.

She felt a sharp sting in her chest and throat next. Because she realized that he must be thinking she would want the memories erased because she could not stand knowing about them, that she was so disgusted she wanted nothing to do with them. She also felt like he might have as well just told her himself through those eyes of his, the words 'of course, any sane person would never want to see even a glimpse of that'.

It was like she could read him and feel his every emotions right now. Was it because of what had just happened? Was this how he had been experiencing her own emotional fluctuations all this while?

"No. You're wrong." Alicia's firm voice suddenly rang out as she shook her head before he could say anything. "I didn't see it. It stopped before you could reach her." she said honestly, knowing that there was no point lying to herself and to him at this point. "But I know you don't want me to see any of that, right?" her voice lowered. "You omitted the details while telling me about it. So I know you don't want anyone to know, much less see any of it." she could still feel the goosebumps prickling all over her skin at the memory of how that woman looked sprawled out naked on the bed.

Their eyes held. Then he tore his gaze off hers with much difficulty.

"Yes. I never wanted you to see any of those fucked up things." He nodded solemnly. His voice was composed now but she could see the veins bulging in his neck, telling her that even right now, he was still fighting damned hard for that precious composure he usually had. "That's why I was trying to tell you. I know that if I tell you everything, you'd understand. I want to explain everything to you, so you'd calm down. I was trying to have your emotions stabilize because I am starting to lose my grip on myself. Your impact on me is too strong that my defences are just crumbling down no matter how much I try to rebuild them. You just smash them down so easily. And I can't do nothing but rebuild the walls over and over. Because if I give in, I know you will invade me and see everything inside of me. Everything I never wanted you to see."

He returned his gaze to hers and an ironic smile tugged at the corner of his lips. "I have underestimated you, Alicia. I thought I can survive you until the deadline... but I guess you've proven me wrong." A small disbelieving chuckle escaped his lips.

"Survive... me?" she echoed softly. Her head slightly cocked to the side, not quite understanding what he meant.