His Genius Wife Is A Superstar novel Chapter 243

Chapter 243 - Unbalanced

Zürich, Switzerland.

Iris woke up from yet another nightmare. She was panting and trembling, drenched in her own cold sweat. Her heart raced wildly inside her chest.

"I’m alright it’s just a dream I didn’t do it it’s not me," she chanted to herself again and again, trying hard to calm herself down. _{freeωebnovēl.c૦m}

The nightmare was always the same. It was of her torturing the Alarm Girls and Fan Luo. She could hear all their screams of pain, agony, hatred and fear directed at her. She cried for her body to stop, but it wouldn’t listen. She couldn’t control it. Her body kept on torturing the women in bloodthirsty ecstasy.

The blood staining her hands felt like permanent marks slowly blackening her soul. No matter how hard she tried to clean off all the blood, it felt like she would never feel truly clean again.

Ever since she woke up from fainting after the remnant punished Fan Luo and the Alarm Girls, she had been having these nightmares almost every time she fell asleep. It came to a point that she didn’t want to sleep anymore.

After a few days of severe insomnia, she knew that she couldn’t live like this. She had to do something to deal with it herself. Getting psychological help from a professional was out of question because they might wrongfully diagnose her as having dissociative identity disorder. Nobody except her brother Lu Zihao would believe that she transmigrated, anyway.

That was why she decided to leave the country. She hoped that distancing herself from the place where these traumatic events happened would help her regain a sense of balance within herself.

She felt unwilling to leave Jin Liwei, but he had a close connection to the events. He was one of the reasons, alongside Fan Luo and the Alarm Girls, why the remnant within her went berserk. She worried that staying with him while she was still feeling unbalanced would only worsen her state.

Besides, she also wanted to take this time away from him to fully figure out her feelings for him. Their relationship had been so fast that they already became lovers before she could even make sense of the situation. Ever since he barged into her life, they had been together. She wanted to know if her deepening feelings for him would change now that they weren’t seeing or talking to each other on a daily basis.

So far, the result was that she was missing Jin Liwei every single day. Her heart longed for him. She was tempted to call him, but she stopped herself. She had a feeling that if she heard his voice, her resolve to fix herself first would go down the drain and she would want to immediately fly back to him.

She grabbed a pillow and hugged it, imagining that it was Jin Liwei. His image in her mind comforted her until she finally calmed down.

"I miss you so much, Liwei," she murmured, tightening her arms around the pillow.

Sighing, she rose from the bed. The sky was dark outside. As usual, she woke up from the nightmares while it was still dawn. The sun would rise in about an hour.

She wore a fluffy robe and headed downstairs to the kitchen. The middle-aged female caretaker was already awake and greeted her in German. The caretaker brewed some calming Kava tea blend for Iris.