His Little Flower (Felix and Flora) novel Chapter 156

Chapter 156 

I don’t know what to do with myself. I don’t know what to do with my hands, with my mouth. My hands are empty without the weight of julian’s. I thought I could be comfortable with his absence, I don’t know how to hear his name and not shudder on the inside. 

I tried. I wrapped up everything he had given to me, everything I had that reminded me of him and gave them to Nico to throws away. Even the walls in my room feel his absence. I deleted all the pictures I had of us together. Even the ones of just me, back from when Julian treated me like a real person. Back when things were simpler and easier and I could have loved him without tasting another woman on him, without the threat of it ending any 

moment 

an end, 

I suppose it was easier this way, the concreteness of things, the knowing, the surety of this sadness, the indemnity of everything coming to an 

i 

“Ginny?” Gabriel knocks on the door to my room. He peeps in. “Breakfast?” 

I sink farther into bed. Tm not hungry” 

He sighs and walks in, kneeling in front of my bed so our faces are level with each other, 

You need to get out of bed, Ginny.” 

I nod. I know, I will. Tomorrow. Maybe. Someday. 

“It’s been a week.” 

It had? 

I shrugged. 

Gabriel strokes the side of my face lightly. “You know, I don’t think I’ve ever seen Capo Bastone as distressed as he is right now. He misses you. I know things were always rocky between the two of you, but I know it was real from the way he looked at you. He loves you.” 

“Yes.” I whisper. “I suppose.” 

“But not in the way you deserve to be loved.” 

I smile at that. “What do you know, maybe I don’t deserve love at all.“ 

“You do, Ginny. I know you do. You deserve the kind of love there is in fairytales. The good kind. What you had with Capo Bastone wasn’t like that.” 

“Bad love.” 

“Well, no. Love is never…bad. Sometimes its selfish, or unwilling. Sometimes the timing isn’t right. Sometimes the person isn’t. It’s okay to leave, then, alright? I don’t know what happened with you two, but I’m glad you left a relationship that wasn’t making you happy-” 

I nod, “Thanks, Gabe.” 

“And then you don’t have to wallow in what’s lost. You have to get up, okay? Feel better. Start again. Now, I need to go to work, but I’ll make you an omelette before I go, and I’ll run a warm bath for you. Will you come out, then? Do something? Go to the shop or go out with Nico?” 

“Okay.” 

I do as Gabe asked, I take a bath and get dressed – comparitively nicer clothes than I’ve been in in the last few days, and I eat the omelette he made me. I’m still not in the mood to go out, so I play a movie in the background while I use my phone. I check the time. It’s pm. And its….the 8th of the month? 

supposed to get my period of the 2nd. Im..six days late. 

Holy shit. 

Holy shit. 

Not now. This can’t be happening. 

I need to take a test. Maybe its the stress causing this. 

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Chapter 156 

I grabs the car keys and rush to the medical store. The store clerk eyes me strangely when I buy a whole lot of pregnancy tests and a soda. Its probably 

also because I 

the way there and have very, very reid eyes. 

I go home, into the bathroom, and pee on a stick. The wait. The wall is excruciating. My heart is jumping out of my chest. I don’t know what I will do if I’m pregnant with Julian’s halzy. 

take a deep breath and check. 

Positive: 

My heart sinks, No, no, no. This can’t be happening. 

I take another test. And another. Then another. All of them are positive. 

I am pregnant 

How could this happen? We used protection. Every. Single, Time 

I search frantically for my phone, running not to room, I call Nico, he doesn’t answer. I need to do something. I need to tell someone. 

Holy hell, I need to tell Julian. He needs to know. He’s going to be a father. 

I need to go to the Central,