Chapter 567 Insecurities
Wang Wei directly told her about the conversation he had with his Heart Devil, his worries, and the flaws in his Dao Heart. Wu Hong frowned slightly before ending the communication.
Then, she disappeared and appeared outside his retreat room. And after opening the formations for her, she entered so they could have a face-to-face conversation.
The young couple sat opposite each other to have their conversation.
"I understand how you feel, but what do you want me to do to fix the situation?" asked Wu Hong. "You should understand that there are some things I physically cannot say even if I want to."
"I'm aware of this, and I've come to terms with that."
"Then, what can I do? If you want, I can link my [Existence] with yours."
"What does that mean?"
"It means if you die, I die. And if I die, you also die."
Wu Hong felt this was the best way to show her love and devotion to him and how far she was willing to go to save this relationship. She never wanted any harm to come to him; her main goal was to ensure that he did not have many regrets or suffer tragedies.
At the same time, she wanted to meet him earlier than they did in the previous timeline and create more beautiful memories; she did not want their relationship to go through all the dramas.
Wang Wei looked at her deeply in the eyes before holding her hands.
"I never want you to have to prove your love for me. I know you love me and would be willing to die for me. And I would gladly do the same."
Wang Wei sighed aloud.
"But I still have my insecurities. For Heaven's sake, you are Empress Wu, a beautiful and renowned Eternal Emperor. No, a Boundless Paragon. Your name and beauty are probably known throughout Primordial Chaos.
"I cannot imagine how many men more handsome and capable than me who desire you. So, why me? Why did you choose me, of all people?"
Wang Wei did not evade her eyes as he said these words.
"I've thought about this many times. What is so special about me that you, of all people, choose me? The first explanation I used to convince myself was my potential. But, upon deeper analysis, it did not make sense.
"My Paragon Soul made me unique, but I know for sure many people have the same soul or something similar. My background is nothing compared to your achievement.
"The only thing special about me is that I'm from Earth. But, with the recent encounter with Hongjun, I doubt I'm the only one."
Wang Wei paused as he felt his voice was slightly elevated, so he took a moment to control himself.
"I've thought about it all. I tried to convince myself that you did not care about these things as they were artificial. I convinced myself you love me because of who I am, my personality, or how I make you feel.
"But is that really enough? Are those things enough to make me worthy of you?"
Wang Wei once again sighed out loud. After his recent conversation with Heart Devil, he realized his real problem was not whether Wu Hong was planning his downfall. He did not care about that; he knew her and her character, so he did not think she would do such a thing.
And even if she did, he did not mind dying for the chance at finding love.
The real issue was his hidden insecurities about their companionship. Although Wang Wei was a confident person about his future, he had to admit he had many insecurities about his relationship with Wu Hong.
Of course, the secrets they had to keep did not make things better, even though he understood it was simply unavoidable. There was a significant gap in their status, and without filling it, he literally could not access these secrets.
"Yes, these things are enough," replied Wu Hong as she held his hands. "I love you because you were not like these other men: you did not want me simply for my body, beauty, strength, or reputation.
"You treated me like a real person instead of the fame 'Empress Wu.' You never tried to change to appease my likes or dislikes. You never wanted to change me into something I was not.
"You never wanted to possess me or treat me as a consoling prize for conquering the famous cold and prideful beauty, Empress Wu]."
Wu Hong looked slightly disgusted as she said the last sentence; she had met too many men like this.
"I love you because you were you," she said with great conviction, squeezing his hands and not wanting to let go–even if Heaven and Earth had suddenly disappeared. And Wang Wei squeezed back.
"Now, I acknowledge the power unbalance in our relationship. And I never want you to feel that you have to be worthy to be with me. I support you in your cultivation journey, not because I want you to reach the same status as me or so that we can be socially compatible.
"I simply want to support you in all your endeavors, just like you have done or will do for me. I just want you, or us, to be happy."
Wang Wei held her hands even tighter than before, then gently laid his foreheads against hers.
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