When Han Yuheng looked at his daughter, he felt something was wrong with his emotions. While waiting in the waiting room, he clearly felt his love and concern for his daughter was real. But now, he only has disgust, even hatred for her. He even thought about taking her back now so that he wouldn’t have to spend money on her, knowing full well that if he did, she might die.
Han Yuheng clenched his fists tightly to control the thoughts that came to his mind. When he felt like he was about to lose control, he turned around and walked away, as if he was being chased by a demon.
As he walked toward the hospital lobby, he felt his emotions slowly calm down and the thought of abandoning his daughter disappeared. Leaning against the wall, his forehead and back were covered with cold sweat.
Recalling the feeling of being controlled by a pair of invisible hands, Han Yuheng’s eyes widened, full of shock and fear. This feeling is somewhat familiar. Whenever he had an extramarital affair, he lost his cool and indulged in pleasure, forgetting his love for his children and respect for his wife.
He always believes that his desires are so high that he loses control every time he is tempted by other women. But now that he thought about it, he felt that everything was so strange. Although he was a calculating, greedy, and ambitious man, he was not foolish enough to risk his future, family, and reputation for temporary pleasure.
If it hadn’t been for what happened today, he might never have realized that he was being controlled. He didn’t know who did it, how they did it, or what their goals were.
As a cadre, he should not believe in anything supernatural, but this matter cannot be explained by logic and science. Therefore, he couldn’t help but believe that there was an absolute power that transcended human logic and power which controlled everything in this world.
He raised his trembling hands, rubbed his face, and took a deep breath to calm down. After thinking for a long time, he finally made up his mind.
Not knowing what would happen if he got close to his daughter and wife, he decided to keep his distance from them. Only when he knows what is controlling him and how to free himself from that control can he express his true feelings for them.
Closing his eyes, he recalled his attitude towards them over the years and smiled bitterly. No wonder he always feels pain in his heart every time he hits his wife and daughter. It turns out he never wanted to treat them that way in the first place.
But if he told them he was possessed by an unknown force, would they believe him? Will they forgive him after everything he’s done?
Han Yuheng laughed and murmured in a low voice, "They might think I’m making excuses, or even think of me as a lunatic."
He let out another long sigh before pulling himself together. Now, he must find money to pay for his daughter’s treatment and medication. Unable to control his emotions and actions, he could only contact his brother and hand his daughter over to him.
As for his wife, if she wanted to leave him, he wouldn’t stop her. Perhaps she could live a happier life away from him. After making up his mind, Han Yuheng walked to the counter and lined up at the counter. Soon it was his turn to pay.
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