"The problem is not the problem; the problem is your attitude about the problem." - Captain Jack Sparrow.
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Lucian gave Zamiel a confused look when his daughter left. Zamiel detected a hint of doubt in the demon's eyes. He was questioning how he was doing things, but he didn't say anything because he knew he didn't do anything better himself. He had also let his daughter go, so he couldn't blame anyone else.
Hazel was very sad, but she didn't look at him with doubt or resentment. To his surprise, she crossed the distance between them and took his hand in hers. "You are not upset with her, are you? She suffered with you while you were suffering. She died on the inside. I saw her empty eyes. She was even willing to give you up, just to end your suffering. Are you giving up on her?"
Zamiel had no doubt that Heaven suffered as much as him, if not even more. No one knew the feeling of seeing your loved one hurt more than him and not be able to do anything. It was something he never wanted Heaven to go through, and that was the reason he let her go. He couldn't be selfish and force her to stay, just because he was willing to go through the same pain again.
If he got hurt, he could always assure her that it wasn't her fault, but if anything happened to anyone in her family, then there would be nothing he could do to assure her. She would blame herself forever.
Besides, letting her stay and assuring her all the time wasn't working. It wasn't effective. Letting her go, on the other hand, would confuse the devil. Zamiel knew that Heaven had a plan. She was going to get closer to her grandfather to know his ways. She couldn't do it from where she was. She had to go to him. He was surprised by her way of thinking, but it wasn't a bad idea.
"I am not giving up on her. I am only trusting and respecting her decision." He said.
She shook her head. "It is a bad decision."
"It is a logical one." He replied. He couldn't believe he was agreeing with Heaven. He should have been panicking and going crazy. Lock her in somewhere, if he had to. But he let her go.
He either did the right thing or the near death experience messed with his mind.
Once he got back home, he smelled Heaven's scent. A smile curved his lips, and he shook his head. She failed at pretending to not care. He looked around to find what she took from him. He knew she took something with her that belonged to him before she left. He owned so many things, so he couldn't tell what she took away, except for herself.
He didn't own her, but she belonged with him. His other half was missing now.
Zamiel looked outside the window and up into the sky. It was clear blue, but not as blue as the one he saw in heaven. He remembered his daughter. Micah. She was a grown woman now. He was still in awe of her. Of her beauty, her kindness, and even her wisdom. The words she said to him before he left had stuck with him. She told him to not give up on life easily and to live as long as he could. Heaven could wait, but life only came once. Some people never got the chance to live, like herself,?so he shouldn't choose to die when he still could live.
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