My 100th Rebirth a day before the Apocalypse novel Chapter 365

She cherished how Duke guided their intimate moments, and she truly enjoyed the experience. His attention made her feel wonderful, even though her stamina couldn’t quite match his. Despite this, she felt an overwhelming sense of euphoria.

’Damn, he was good at it!’ Kisha thought.

At the same time, her fear stemmed from the fact that this was her first experience with a man, leaving her unsure of how to fulfill his needs. Unspoken anxieties also lingered from her past life, where betrayal and deception led to tragic consequences. These unresolved scars made her apprehensive, even though she deeply wanted to be close to Duke and share these moments with him.

Due to these underlying fears, she’s unintentionally pushing Duke away and retreating periodically. Although she never openly admits it, her feelings for him are deep—love even—but her intense emotions also make her fearful of making mistakes and leaving a negative impression.

Although she never admits it, deep down she’s aware that what that woman said has subtly affected her. She fears that she might not be able to fully satisfy Duke in bed and worries that he might find her dull or uninteresting once he’s experienced her.

Perhaps she didn’t trust Duke enough to believe his feelings were genuine and distinct from those of the scumbag she had known before. As a result, her mind became so deeply troubled that these fears insidiously emerged, taking hold without her even realizing it.

Her head was messed up really good and she knew it.

Perhaps she was as clumsy with love as Duke, and her failure to communicate her feelings led to this misunderstanding.

Kisha smiled wryly to herself, then looked at Duke. Gently cupping his face in her hands, she gazed directly into his eyes.

"I suppose we’re just as foolish as each other," Kisha said with a soft laugh, resting her forehead against his. Duke understood her unspoken words, feeling his tumultuous heart finally calm. As their hearts began to beat in unison, a sense of peaceful connection enveloped them.

Kisha and Duke felt as though a long- lodged bone had finally been dislodged from their throats, bringing a sense of relief and calm. For Kisha, her once-turbulent mind, akin to a stormy sea, now felt more serene. The chaos of her overthinking was gradually being drowned out by this newfound tranquility.

She felt deeply insecure after her first time with Duke. The woman’s words, suggesting she was merely beautiful but dull, had lodged in her mind, making her worry if Duke might grow tired of her once his urges were satisfied.

Since they were each other’s firsts, she feared that if he ever experienced intimacy with someone else, he might compare her to them and see the difference as that woman had suggested.

The woman had told her that men often seek variety because they crave new experiences, implying that women like Kisha were simply not exciting. That’s why, whenever she sensed Duke’s desire, she would retreat—not out of exhaustion or fear of him, but because she was haunted by the echoes of her past and those damaging words.

Reflecting on it now, she realized she hadn’t given Duke the credit he deserved. She had forgotten that Duke was nothing like that scumbag—who only thought with his lower half and bit the hand that fed him. Unlike him, Duke might appear cold on the outside, but he was warm and loyal on the inside.

She had allowed those words to unsettle her mind, and if Duke hadn’t come forward to apologize and reassure her, she didn’t know how long this turmoil would have continued. It might have even jeopardized her relationship with him due to this misunderstanding.

Kisha smiled genuinely as she gave Duke a long, passionate kiss filled with her emotions. "No, I should be the one apologizing. You’ve been amazing, my love. You might be domineering in bed, but that’s what made our first time so unforgettable—I’ve been feeling sore and wonderful all night," she joked. Her playful comment, however, only seemed to stir things up further. _{ƒгeewebnovёl.com}