"I don’t mean to be rude, but I think that you pushing your feelings onto me and calling them love also played a big part. You were too quick in telling me you loved me, especially since you knew nothing about love or me in the first place.
"You just loved the image you had of me and I knew it was nothing but a lie. Kamila and I, instead, took our relationship seriously and we almost broke up right off the bat because of Berion.
"We opened to each other slowly, accepting our respective flaws while trying not to drown the other with our own shit. With her ugly past, her twisted family, and her poor sister, I could truly relate to her.
"Not seeing each other for days, sometimes weeks at a time, allowed me to understand how much I appreciated the moments we spent together, separating my feelings for her from the egotistical desire of not wanting to be alone.
"I realized to have truly changed only when I found out that I cared for her even when parted from Solus. I’m still paranoid, cynical, and bitter, but I’m no longer poisonous.
"I’m scared to death of how Kamila will react when she learns about Solus and that’s why I never told her that I love her. Because if I do and then she leaves me, I don’t know if I would be able to take such a blow." Lith said.
"Wait, how the heck do you do that? What do you say when Kamila tells you that she loves you?" Phloria was deeply moved by how much thought he had put in their past relationship ad flabbergasted by the revelation.
"She never did, so I never had to say anything." Lith shrugged.
"After over two years? Are you kidding me?" Phloria’s genuine surprise irked Lith to no end.
"Just like you, she understood I had many secrets and she had a few of her own. She’s probably just waiting to have a clear picture before throwing the L-word." Lith said.
"I’m sorry, but you introduced her to your family, you helped her sister, lived together, and now Kamila knows everything about you but Solus. What the heck is she still waiting for? I agree that love takes time to grow, but this is too long." Phloria didn’t like her own words.
They made her sound as if she was trying to undermine Lith’s relationship and expected them to break up any moment. Yet she had to say those things because she believed them and she cared for him.
"She’s just afraid." Solus said, making the other two turn toward her. "Phloria, Kallion has deeply hurt you, but he’s the only one. Kamila had several Kallions in her life. People she believed she could love and yet tossed her away like garbage.
"Her family crushed her trust in bonds and those men that she had in people. Kamila is scared by everything the word love implies because it only brought pain to her."
"How do you know?" It was the first time Lith heard about such things.
He had never asked about Kamila’s past relationships because he thought they were meaningless to her, yet now he had learned that the reason she didn’t mention them was that her scars ran deep.
"I just watched her and listened to her words when I was there during your dates. That and while you were being cleansed from Huryole’s energy, Kamila told Tista about her ex-boyfriends. Mostly they were horror stories." Solus replied.
"Then you better go back to her fast. Just remember that I’m no one’s second choice and neither should be Solus." Phloria said while looking him straight in the eyes.
Solus warped the tower near the closest City Gate, allowing Lith to get back to the Flying Griffon resort around six in the morning thanks to the time zone difference.
"Kami, I’m back." Lith woke her up by gently caressing her face.
"Lith? What time is it?" She mumbled with a drowsy voice.
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