Supreme Magus novel Chapter 1473

Chapter 1473 Lights Out Part 1

"You, instead, have everything I have and so much more, yet you’re still as miserable as when you were the son of a poor farmer. You are allowed to suffer and cry when bad things happen, but not to carry them over the years.

"Leave the past in the past and don’t let it poison your present. The same stands for the good things. You are allowed to be happy and laugh without worrying that an enemy might pop out of the shadows and ruin everything.

"Maybe you’ve lost your Abomination side, but you don’t need a black core to corrupt everything good that you have built. Look at how worried your parents were for you, at how you let your own bias ruin your relationship with Phloria first and Kamila now.

"Why don’t you allow yourself to be happy? If you keep up like this, even once Solus will be back at her prime, it wouldn’t be enough to make you feel safe. No title nor any amount of magic can defeat the monsters that prowl in here." Quylla patted his chest.

"Only you can."

After that, she remained silent until the music stopped again, giving Lith the time he needed to think.

’Was this what Baba Yaga referred to when she told me about my power being corrupted and about chains that made me strong in the past but that also keep me from moving forward?’ He asked Solus via their mind link.

’It would actually make sense. Abominations are souls strong enough to reject death itself and as Carl said, the reason why you keep reincarnating is that you don’t really care about anyone.’ She replied.

’That’s not true! I love my family and I care for them.’ Lith said in outrage.

’No, you care for their safety, that’s different. You keep saying that you love them yet you always keep them away from your life and you never let them have a word about the important decisions you must make.’ Solus shook her head.

’That’s because I don’t want them to worry and because they have no idea what does it mean being a cursed thing forced to wander forever!’ He said.

’They are ignorant only because you didn’t tell them. Or are you saying that leaving them in the dark is the right thing to do because they wouldn’t understand your problems anyway? Do you really love them or do you consider them just as pets you feed?’

Solus’s words struck a nerve, forcing Lith to calm down and reconsider his past life choices. _{frёeweɓηovel.coɱ}

’Fuck me sideways, Quylla is right. Ever since Carl died, I didn’t treat anyone in my life as a person, just as a piece of a game where I set the board and make the rules according to the circumstances.

’I never gave them a voice in any matter. Everything happened either because it was convenient for me or because I had no other choice. Even with Kamila, everything can be summarized with me dumping a bomb on her and praying that she would withstand the blast.’

’Sure, there was no way to soften the blow when I introduced Solus to her, but I could have surely handled things better when I introduced Solus to my family, starting with asking her damn opinion instead of throwing everything on her in a fit.’ Lith thought.

’Solus dreamed for years to meet my family, yet unlike that with Kamila, I had prepared nothing nor did I give her the time to introduce herself properly. Everything must always happen how and when I decide so, without any care for others.