Supreme Magus novel Chapter 1870

Chapter 1870 Stick and Carrot (Part 2)

"Yet it was also time to grow a spine and face my past, as Friya always says. Ever since I followed her advice and started living not only as a human but also as a Rezar, I can feel the barrier between my life forces thinning."

"Why still gloomy, then?" Protector asked, throwing him a reproachful look for not reading the room.

"Because even if I manage to make it disappear, I will become a regular hybrid. I'm an old ass man so when that happens, I will have to make a choice. Losing either of my natures would be crippling.

"I still need to find a way to make them merge like it happened to Lith or at least delay the choice like Tista." Nalrond replied, noticing that Lith was staring at the singer.

Whatever her race was, she had the appearance of a woman with shoulder-length raven-black hair and violet eyes. Her sweet, soft voice as she sang a sad song made even the Rezar wish to know her better.

"She's real pretty. Are you thinking of asking for her contact rune?"

"Yeah, she is." Lith nodded. "She reminds me of Kami."

Protector and Nalrond shared a quick glance. Aside from the hair, the singer looked nothing like the Constable.

"I won't ask her contact rune because my life is already a mess. Also, I have no amulet anymore." The memory made his face and voice become even gloomier.

The Rezar inwardly cursed himself for the blunder.

"Lith, I've known you since you were a kid and I'm used to your killer glare routine." Ryman said. "Being so sad is not like you, especially showing it to others. Whatever happened, you can tell us. We are your friends."

"Speak for yourself." Nalrond rubbed his claws as a waiter brought them more beer and steaming dishes. "I'm here for the free food."

Lith chuckled at the joke before answering.

"My problem is twofold. The first part is Solus." His tablemates inhaled sharply and waited for the blow. "She's gone on a date tonight."

"Isn't that what you wanted?" Ryman asked. "Either you let her go or you get jealous, you can't do both."

"It is what I wanted and I'm the one who told her to go." Lith replied. "We are getting closer, but in the wrong way. I need to make some distance between us and Aerth is a good guy. He can give her what I can't."

"What do you mean?" Nalrond asked. "Whenever I think about soulmates, you two always come to my mind."

"Thanks, but we're more co-dependent than soulmates." Lith said. "When we met, we already were two broken people who survived by relying on each other, but back then we had certainties.

"I knew my path in life and Solus wanted to find out her nature and past. Now, however, everything has fallen apart. My life is in shambles and learning the truth almost destroyed her.

"We are both more damaged than ever. We feel lonely, empty, and have a constant desire to forget about our worries. Our bond makes everything more intense and dangerous.

"If we end up together like this, it won't be because of our feelings but because of our problems. Which means that once one of us realizes that even intimacy doesn't make the problems go away or overcomes their trauma, the relationship would crumble.