Supreme Magus novel Chapter 2678

2678 From War to... (Part 2)

"This doesn't make sense.' Solus thought. 'Why do my feelings go up and down like a rollercoaster? How could I be so calm while reforging War into Ragnar?k? I was supposed to be distraught and even with Grandma's presence I-'

Another wave of sadness threatened to drown her but the despair it brought her didn't last. Lith was still holding her shoulder while she sat, happy to have her back. Happy to be back with his family.

"By my Mom, how could I be this stupid?' Solus thought.

"I'm sorry, but I'd like for everyone to leave except for Mom, Dad, and Quylla." She actually said.

"Why?" The hurt in Lith's voice weakened her defenses, causing Solus an emotional pain so intense that it seemed physical,

"Because of our bond." She replied. "I can't deal with my feelings with you here. You are my rock and my armor in more than one way. Your presence works even better than Grandma's because you are not just powerful.

"You also share with me your willpower, your strength, and you 'infect' me with a joy that is not mine. I'm sorry if it sounds mean, but I just can't find a proper term."

Then, she turned toward Senton, Rena, and the others.

"As for you guys, I'm sorry but being surrounded by so many people makes me feel pitied. I want Mom to be here because I'm a crybaby. I want Dad and Quylla to stay because they are the only ones who can truly understand how I feel without judging me.

"I don't think I have the strength to open up in front of you all. Not now."

Her words stung Lith, who wanted to be there for her, but they hurt Raaz more.

'She wants Elina for emotional support and me because of my experience? Would she kick me out as well if it wasn't for Orpal kidnaping me? Am I such a shitty parent compared to my wife?' He looked at his children, hoping they could understand his turmoil and give him an answer.

Yet all they did was smile at him before turning away and leaving.

Without the crowd and the children, Solus felt like she could breathe again.

She didn't feel the gaze of her fellow mages weighing on her and dissecting her weakness. At the same time, however, without Lith and Salaark there was nothing stopping the emotional onslaught from ravaging her heart.

She felt violated for being forced to follow M'Rael's orders. Guilty for all the pain that the tower and the Fury had caused. By using the hammer that she had inherited from her mother to hurt Solus' friends and shatter War, M'Rael had tainted the Fury as well.

She was also appalled by her own actions in massacring the helpless elves after the defeat of the High Chancellor. What she had done while fused with Lith was not only unforgivable, but also the closest thing to Forbidden Magic she had ever done.

"There's something I need to tell you." Solus stuttered every other word but she then proceeded to retell everything Salaark had shared via the mind link with her own words.

Her throat was hoarse from the talking and crying so the tea did wonders for her. The honey was a balm for her sour mood while the alcohol spread the equivalent of a warm embrace from inside her body. _{freёwebnovel.com}