Supreme Magus novel Chapter 2742

Chapter 2742 Voices and Shadows (Part 2)

Every time Kamila's core and skill failed her, every time she couldn't make Elysia stop crying despite all of her efforts and Elina's teachings, the voices in her head became unbearable.

Ever since Kamila had married Lith, she had gotten used to being badmouthed and criticized both in her face and behind her back. Everyone seemed eager to explain to her why she was an unsuitable partner for a powerful mage and a waste of space.

She had learned how to brush them off, knowing from Zynia's experience how cruel people born with a golden spoon could be. During the pregnancy, the Dragon scales had reassured her of her husband's feelings and created a bond with her daughter stronger than any insult.

Yet after Elysia's birth, after losing her powers and the Dragon scales, all the mean words that had been thrown at her and she believed to have forgotten had resurfaced. Whenever she failed a spell, the space around them seemed to darken.

She felt suffocating, crowded by people pointing fingers and reminding her of her flaws and how inadequate of a mother she was. Kamila tried to ignore them, but getting hurt after messing up what was supposed to be an easy spell had been the final straw.

She was curled up because that was the only free space the shadows in her head left her. She cried because she was trying to cover the voices. Those mean words sounded less like insults and more like truth the more she listened to them.

Kamila's desperate wails tore Solus' heart to shreds, making her sob at the realization of having failed to understand how deep the pain of her beloved one was.

<nulli>'Gods, I'm so stupid. Using my hair as a blanket, using the tricks I've learned from Lith to calm Elysia, and flaunting my magic to solve every problem only added fuel to the fires of Kami's feeling of inadequacy.

<nulli>'Unlike what happened to Marth, she isn't just comparing herself with her pregnant self, but also with me. Without realizing it, I turned her magic lessons into a competition that Kami was bound to lose.'

Solus was about to burst into tears and beg Kamila for forgiveness when a deep-rooted pain turned her sense of guilt into righteous anger. The tears dried from her eyes and her voice became steady again.

"Kamila Yehval Verhen, don't you dare say anything like that ever again!" Solus grabbed her by the shoulders and forced Kamila to look her in the eyes. "My father, Threin, was just a human painter.

"Compared to my mother, he was weak and frail. His magical talent was so poor that he managed to fly only after lots of practice and he never learned how to use dimensional magic.

"Dad was, as you say, useless. More useless than you since he couldn't feed me as a baby and his cooking contained traces of paint so often that we all got resistant to poison over time.

"Yet I loved him. I still do. He taught me more things about being a good person than the great Ripha Menadion ever did. Whenever my mother was too busy with her experiments, my father was there for me.

"Menadion taught me everything about magic metals, mana crystals, and Forgemastering, but it was Threin who taught me how to read and write. It was he who read me stories every night before putting me to bed.

"Do you think I love him any less for it?" _{frёewebnoѵēl.com}

Kamila was taken aback by Solus' aggression enough to snap back to her rational self.