The Alpha's Borrowed Luna (Abigail Hayes) novel Chapter 237

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The Alpha’s Borrowed Luna

Chapter 236

Kaius glanced at Frost, then back to me. “Are you sure you want to know?”

“Yes. I do, and that’s why I am here.” I crossed my arms, steeling myself for whatever terrible truth awaited.

He sighed, running a hand through his hair. “You killed Rowan.”

“What?… Rowan’s death hadn’t been by the other packs that wanted us dead?”

”

“No, it hadn’t been that.” Kaius’s expression softened with what looked like genuine regret.

“I sucked all his blood out, and then I watched him die right before my eyes, didn’t I?” The question was rhetorical. I already knew the answer, could feel the truth of it settling into my bones.

“No, you hadn’t been in your right mind. The demon growing in you made you do things, but you had felt so guilty about it and in pain, I had to do something.” His explanation came quickly, as if he’d rehearsed it.

“You took it away; you took all the pain away.” I tried to summon anger, but all I felt was a strange, hollow relief. At least I hadn’t been consciously responsible.

“I didn’t mean to kill him, Kaius. But I did anyway. I am a monster. The words escaped before I could stop them, the truth I’d been denying since my transformation.

“You are not. If it helps, I’ve killed people too, and I know what it feels like, but over time that pain and hurt… is not so hard to bear anymore. I am the monster, Elowen, not you. You had made a mistake, one you cannot even be blamed for, so please, let it go.”

His attempt at comfort struck a chord, reminding me of the bond we shared despite everything. I opened my mouth to tell him about Thalia, about her control over me, about the terrible danger we were all in.

“There is something you need to know, Kaius.” I began, feeling the words form in my throat. “I….”

But the words wouldn’t come. My throat constricted, my tongue suddenly heavy and useless in my mouth. I tried again, pushing against the invisible force holding me back. “I…”

Panic clawed at me as I realized what was happening. Thalia’s command was preventing me from warning them. I couldn’t tell them

about her control, couldn’t warn them of the danger.

“Elowen, are you okay? What did you want to tell me?” Kaius had risen from his chair, concern etched across his features.

“Is nothing.” I forced the lie past the blockage in my throat.

“That didn’t look like ‘nothing‘ to me.” He moved around the desk, reaching for me.

I stepped back, needing space to think. “Kaius, please, just let me be

“No, you look scared; what did you want to tell me?”

“Of course I am scared; why wouldn’t I be? I killed a man, and I cannot even trust you anymore. Maybe you believed you were helping me, but I don’t like my mind being messed with; you had no right to do that.” I latched onto the partial truth, using my genuine anger about his mental manipulation to mask the real reason for my fear.

Kaius stepped back as if I’d struck him, hurt flashing in his eyes. “I did what I thought was best for you.”

“That’s not your decision to make.” I turned toward the door, desperate to escape before I broke down completely. “I need some

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