The Primordial Record novel Chapter 1563

"I have no regrets."

As a mortal, standing beside his father, Andar saw the end of a universe while still inside it. This event was one of the pivotal moments in his life, and it showed him the inevitability of the end and the decline of all things.

There were those in Reality who were blessed or burdened with the power to persist for eternity, but aside from these few, there was a limit placed on everyone, even Old Ones, and today, he had reached the end of his road.

In the beginning, Andar struggled with this concept for a while, and even Rowan could not solve the queries in his heart because after conversing with his father, Andar discovered a frightening side to Rowan: He had no innate understanding of death.

It was not as if Rowan did not know that death existed; he was one of the greatest dealers of death that Andar had ever seen, but something about him did not acknowledge the possibility of it, and Andar had sensed that even as a mortal.

He could have never known how correct he was in his assumption. It was not until recently that Rowan discovered death, and he knew that his immortal lifespan, no matter how obscene, still had a limit.

Old Ones would die, even if the time scale for their death could be referred to as an infinite period from now, but they would die in the end. Rowan's lifespan would make Old Ones seem like mayflies before an eternal rock, but he would still perish.

However, when Andar walked with his father, he detected an understanding of a limited lifespan in his heart, and he automatically assumed that Rowan was among the few who would never perish.

Blessed or condemned to exist forever.

And this thought scared Andar. He wanted to live for a long time so he could discover what it was like at the peak of existence, but he did not want to live forever. Perhaps with his talent, it was possible for him to reach a point where he would exist forever, but something in him knew he would never take that last step.

That weight would be too much for him to bear.

Andar did not think that the end would come for him this quickly, but it was always inevitable, and he could not help but feel a bit of shame in his heart that he did not do enough before his time was cut short.

Nevertheless, there was no hesitation in his heart when he choosed to give his life up for Rowan's dreams to exist.

Truthfully, Andar could not understand the full scale of this war; it was too big for him to wrap his mind around. Although he knew that Rowan wanted to speak to him about much of it, his soul was too fragile to handle that knowledge without corruption.

The same way the mere sight of an Old One could lead to corruption, knowledge about matters that exceeds the boundary of Old Ones would do much worse.

Andar chose to believe in Rowan because, unlike the distant and cruel entities who ruled over existence, his father still had a heart that could weep for those he loved.

Everyone, even the immortals in the highest heavens, had a god they all looked up to and worshiped, but the true god of gods that existed above all things was not benevolent; most were even cruel, but Andar had found a true god that could love.

It was enough for him to lay down his life for this god.

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